jeez

So right now I am babysitting (well using their laptop to lurk the internet while the two boys watch tv and the baby is asleep). I feel oddly discontent right now, but this is a familiar feeling. I feel like I'm losing drive in certain areas and it's sad. I wish I could enjoy every second of summer and just play off of everything even if whatever is happening bores me to tears or is just lame. I feel like I could be doing so, but it's hard to when I just want to be somewhere else. It's funny how people make such short spans of time so completely unbearable. I could just be making the best of things, but I can't get certain thoughts off my mind. I worry too much, I stress out about the worst things, and I just can't stand taking things one day at a time. It worries me when things aren't definite. This is going to drive me completely crazy when I'm done with school and am "ready" to take on the world. I strive for reassurance and will pester people to get it. With school, my jobs (current and past), my friends, and even family. Why can't I chill out? I envy people that can just say screw it and let things be. This is a time where I should be my happiest. Great things have happened this summer alone and I just need to focus on these happenings and just make the best out of right now.

july continued...

Tonight I went to watch fireworks in Freeport with my aunts, mother, and younger cousin. They were all right but I always prefer fireworks to be shot together and not always one at a time. Anyway here are some more pictures from today...

july

So I have taken about a gazillion pictures in the past three days. It's been fun hanging out with my baby cousins, seeing family, and laying low but now I'm kind of in the mood just to be around friends. Oh hey guess what? None of them are around right now. Sooo bored. I guess ideally this would be a good time to post pictures since I have no one to see or no where to be.





Have to go. More later.

The Real Start of Summer

So, officially, I feel as though summer has begun. The weather, the outdoor activities, the daily urges to go to the beach or any body of water to cool down, and sadly enough the boredom. In recent discussion the memories of just being a kid during summer came up. I remember when just being able to wake up and go play games outside meant everything to me. It's amazing how such simplicity can entertain a child for hours on end. This summer has kicked off with flipping burgers and, if I must be honest, numerous wastes of gas. I still enjoy simple things like bike rides with friends, barbeques, and trips to the lighthouse, but now it just doesn't seem like enough. Hopefully some excitement will come about sooner rather than later, or maybe we'll have to stick with simple for the summer. I haven't taken many photos so far this summer but here are just a few from the past couple of weeks.

May is finally ending...

I have been done with school since the 8th and I cannot wait for May to be over. Summer doesn't seem quite here yet. Phoebe comes home this weekend I think and I cannot be happier. I can't wait to see everyone I need to see. So far being home has been extremely uneventful. I work a less than satisfying job, I do the same things every week, and I'm just bored to tears. I haven't really done anything fun lately or taken any pictures which makes me sad. Hopefully this summer will be full of fun times and never ending photo ops. I did however, take pictures for my sister's prom as well as her rugby championships. I guess I'll post the best of the series and hope things get exciting over the next few weeks.

Now rugby! Her team played in the U-19 New England's tournament and won!

wire shark and painting

So during this week I submitted my wire sculpture project to my 3-D design teacher and got an A. I was super excited because this bad boy took me forever. I like him. In other news Sara and I painted the rink. We got a little crazy with the paint and proved to be even bigger losers than we once thought we were. I can't stop thinking about summer lately. I can't wait for the weather, miscellaneous activities and friends. So excited!

SHARKY!


i miss my bffl with the matching pants and shoes haha. We don't plan that by the way. Anyway I'm stuck in Orono for about 2-3 weeks which sucks. More soon...

Just Walking Around

These are some photos that I took a weekend or two ago when I was home. My friend Sara and I decided to walk around in an area we don't commonly venture to, and it ended up being really great. I got some pretty good photos and it was nice to simply just walk around and sit by the water. We came across a pretty cool building being worked on, some trains, and a great rock wall. I hope to do this a lot more in the summer. Taking walks is so much fun! YAY!!!